Just awhile ago, I was saying how July came in so quickly – I blinked and then, it’s now September!
To start of the day, I played the ever favorite song of everyone during September, “Wake Me Up When September Ends” by Greenday. On the contrary, I really want to wake up this September from all the madness that’s been happening to me.
From July to August, I feel I’ve been just sleeping my life away and feeling like slipping away, trying to escape. Too many thoughts, too many decisions. Everyday I tell myself, wake up early, try to be productive, don’t be sad, don’t think about worries…but I always end up sleeping it all away, literally.
I have to make it a point that I really do blame myself because I still think too much no matter what I do. At night, I think of random things keeping me awake, even if it really doesn’t matter because I want to keep myself busy until I’d feel sleepy. It’s not really healthy! So don’t be like me 😛
So, even if it’s very late, it’s better late than never is it not? I didn’t sleep again on time last night, resulting with me blogging right now. But I plan to stay awake so I can sleep normally later tonight. I’ll really try harder, even if I have to drink more coffee (I’m not really fond of it if you know me personally, lol) Or something.
For a start I really want to clean up my work table so I can do something more meaningful other than staying up late reading too much stuff on my phone and thinking about what-ifs and what wills. I really miss working on something with so much passion and sparkle! I guess you can say, I’ve been really in a slump and too much pressure lately causing me to be so depressed to the max I’ve forgotten how I really was before and who I wanted to be..maybe I’ll get to it a little bit this time.
I hope this month’s gonna be better, not only for me but for everyone! So, don’t sleep all September, dear self – so they won’t have to wake you up, you’d be awake to see it all.